Good morning guys, juz got back from camp on this Sunday mornin after being confined "for no good reason!" Yes, i got confined again for the 2nd time in my recruit life. Why? It's becuz 2 ass-holes in my Rota were caught smoking, and we were all too be blame. The funny thing is, why muz we be confined for somethin tht we didn't do?? They said once "Who caught smokin will be sent straight to DB!" Where's tht action? Why they didn't send these 2 idiots there? How the fuck does this system works??
Becuz of these 2, my plans for my weekends were shattered and i'm not even happy, with my own rota, which has been givin lots of problems, honestly, we are such a disgrace in this Firefighting course. I felt tht way too, no1 seems to co-operate at all.. They don't give a damm, after all the punishment tht were given by our SIR, i don't think it's enough for them. I had enough, and I'm not well..
6 more weeks, 6 more weeks in this crappy place and a very intensive and stressful course. I'm stressed up, i can't even get my brains straighten up, no 1 seems to care except for 1, and i'm thankful to tht person for hearing my cries.. Thank you very much.. I dunno how much stress can i handle, with the people, with the theory and practical, there's too much things for me to handle. I'm on a verge to do somethin that i wouldn't wanna do, but I will if i hav no other choice. But is it worth it for me? I need some1 to REALLY talk to me abt the situation i'm in. I need a damm good solution to get my mental brains fixed. I need help. . .
Dad has been receving court letters, and i'm very worried and been thinkin wad's gonna happen next.
My sister, i haven't seen her for almost 2 weeks, where the hell is she? I need updates from you, your blog stated u've been okay.. Seen tht smile on ur face, but in family wise, where are you?
To whom it may Concern.... I lost words for you, I lost my confidence in you, It's your life, I can't control tht. I hope u wake up to your senses 1 day. I give up on you. I'm disappointed in you, I've tried, and it was never good enough. The day tht i hope you'll listen, will never be here. The day you show your appreciation, will never be spoken. Thanks for all tht. . . One day when u're ready, I'm here to listen, Again. . . . . .
topsy turvy-ed @ 11:15 AM
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The name's Hilmi, u can call me Im for short, or Hils or Hilly will do.. haha.. Anyways, serving my national service right now and finishin soon 11 sept 2008! Yahoo
Born on 11 May 1987.. Hav 3 crazy siblings. 21 this year. Laid back kinda guy and loves to make sarcastic remarks.. and a bit lame as well...
Loves
surf the net
reading books by mike gayle & matt dunn
hanging out with his frens
