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Sunday, November 12, 2006
This is a photo of me, recently taken. Look how ugly it is.. Hahaha.. Well, here are some updates abt me.
Things are not really going well for me at my firefighting course. I never really face a period of so much stress and pressure. I've managed to survived my 4 weeks in firefighting course and i have 8 more weeks to die there.. My bunkmates are juz worst than the previous ones at BRTC. Here in CDA, they don't really give tht much welfare, they fucked u upside down whenever u made a mistake. I'm not mentally strong. I juz felt tht my "mad" switch can go on anytime. Hiaz, i'm worried abt the weeks to come. Training is going to more tougher in weeks to come. I've learnt lots of stuffs for the past 4 weeks. Never trust any1.
Family. They say in order to keep the family bond stronger, u must never missed tht important essence, communication. Lots of downfall has been happenin in my family. Updates which i nvr been informed till i got myself booked out. My17 year old sister has been facing major problems of her own which she eventually put her life in jeopardy. I dunno wad has she's been up to until fights broke out. Not only tht, 2 years from now, i'm ready to face the biggest event tht i dun want it to happen but it leaves my mother with no choice. Migrating. I'm not the 1 who is migrating of course, but the bond as us siblings are. A part of me says i dun want them to leave, but this time there's no way out from this situation. I didn't know this day wud come and i didn't expect myself to face a lot of mishaps happenin around me. I've been keepin it from my friends, cuz i dun even know who to talk to other thn myself with this blog. I'm totally shattered with tears. There's more but i dun really wanna talk abt it. . .
Friends. I'm in a position where i dun like seein my best fren feelin so down, tht he felt suicidle, not moving on, in pain, which he thinks he don't deserve to be love. To u, if u are reading this, I know u are drown with your sorrows, facing u sometimes, it's hard to talk to u, lookin at those dilemmic eyes of yours, i dunno how u gonna pull thru.
I know you're hurt, hurt by a thing call love, but bro, know this, you deserved to be love, don't u even dare u say you're not, cuz u're a somebody tht ppl admired abt u, even tho u lose this obstacle who knows, u might be able to find some1 better than tht person, how long u're willin to wait?
How long u gonna traumatise urself in this kinda manner, how many more mellow entries tht u gonna out inside ur blog?
I know tht's ur blog and it's ur business but as ur best fren, i'm juz worried and i dun want to see u sufferin like this forever, u hav to accept the fact tht the person u fell in love is not comin back. It's time to take ur time to move on. Honestly, i've lost my best fren by a thing call love, and he's not here by my side anymore, even i'm tryin my best to comfort u but i eventually failed and not doing a good job. I want him back, back here happy, cheerful and cheeky, even tho u love hidin it, u're not really a good actor cuz i know u well enuf. Think abt it. And dun say the word "LOVE" doesn't exist in ur dictionary.
It will slowly come. Control ur emotions, don't let it control u, look at the people around u tht concerned abt u, they are worthy to give their love to u. U and tht person are not meant to be together. U gotta accept tht. I'm sorry for being harsh but as ur best fren, i want u to realise tht. Think abt tht.
topsy turvy-ed @ 10:23 AM
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The name's Hilmi, u can call me Im for short, or Hils or Hilly will do.. haha.. Anyways, serving my national service right now and finishin soon 11 sept 2008! Yahoo
Born on 11 May 1987.. Hav 3 crazy siblings. 21 this year. Laid back kinda guy and loves to make sarcastic remarks.. and a bit lame as well...
Loves
surf the net
reading books by mike gayle & matt dunn
hanging out with his frens
Hates
People who take advantage of me?
