Yesterday Is History, Tomorrow's Mystery, But Today Is A Gift, That's Why it is called The Present

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

I wrote to you a short and simple poem after you left:

If there's A chance for you to stay,
I'll be the happiest person cuz you've make my day.
If there's 1 day i don't blush,
I want you to be there, for you are my crush.
I hope this poem make you smile,
Which i never did it for a quite a long while.
Thanks again...

Surprisingly, the person replied to me:

If somehow the sands of time were to freeze,
I'd be happy to stay,
Just like the breeze,
Though U May Not see Me,
Have Faith the I'm by your side all throughout your night and day...

It's the sweetest thing tht i ever heard from you. And you make my day today as always by talkin on the phone with you.. I had enuf laughs today, even it means not seein you today but wad the hell, u are 1 damm funny person.. Hahaha.. Lookin forward to the outing.. Knowing tht the hp i'm using is gonna be gone tomolo, i juz wanna post this on the blog so tht i can remember wad u wrote to me.. Thanks again..

topsy turvy-ed @ 6:21 PM

Monday, May 29, 2006

Cam whoring session again!! Nice.. Hahaha..
Anyways, X3 was way too disappointing for me, so much with Angel, Phoenix and Cyclops and not forgettin Mystique. So nonsense, juz killin all the characters juz like tht.. So plain and dull.. I was expectin more actions from angel.. Hiaz.. So disappointin.. Stupid Brat Ratner. It should be Bryan Singer suppose to direct the show and produce it. Hiaz.
Anyways, this pics are taken when me, Hani and Ria went to job interview. Yeah, and went to watch Over the Hedge. Veery very hilarious! I love it very much.. Better than Madagascar.. I like the character Hammy, so funny...

I'm feelin gr8 nowadays, cheerful, fun and relaxed. Especially when i see this person almost everyday. Hmm, this person makes me smile. A lot.. Hehehe...

topsy turvy-ed @ 3:05 PM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Last week pics updated!! Have fun lookin at it.. Yesterday's pic, comin out soon!! Have a great weekend!!

Ooh, i juz love cam-whoring with Jac's hp.. Hahaha.. I'm such a geek..

topsy turvy-ed @ 2:16 AM

Friday, May 26, 2006

Some things we cannot mentioned tht whether we know some1's dark past, cuz we'll dun wanna hurt any1, whether it's your family members, your best friends, your crush, your love ones or whoever whose close to you. I learn 1 big thing, tht is to SHUT up.

Let it be.

Cuz obviously i, you or whoever tried to gave a warning won't do anythin good, it's up whether the person believe it or not. I won't listen till i know the truth, for the sake of my love one's happiness, i wouldn't want to ruin it, it's good to know, but juz be aware and be there for the person when he or she needs you by his or her side. Listen to wad the person has to say, be the person's listenin ear and u feel comfortable and gr8 juz being by his or her side. And he or she will be to.. Tht's wad i learnt.

If you guys think I'm crappin, obviously i hav no idea whether i am. Haha.. But it's juz somethin tht came out from me.. Juz need to let it out..

When the moment i hear ur name,

The presence are still the same,

Wad other choice tht i can make?

Wad other "great surprises" can i take?

You are a person which juz simply ambiguous,

I got simply mistaken of your ways and tht's dangerous.

I got myself entangled with your sweet talk illusions,

You twisted my thoughts and held me in confusion.

When the day comes tht you'll learn the truth,

As they said wad comes around goes around juz don't make the wrong move.

As your close friend I may not tell u wad's happenin now,

But when the day you'll need me, I'll be here somehow.

Reckon by: Muhammad Hilmi

Hope you guys like the poem..

topsy turvy-ed @ 7:47 PM

Friday, May 19, 2006

Hmm, juz somethin came in my mind... So yah.. Day's ok today, never felt better.. Should be a better smile on my face... I'm happy... For no reason..

Juz to let u know,
It's hard for me,
But it's time for u to go,
So now i can let u be free,
Although i've kept u in this heart of mine,
I over-reacted so much tht i crossed the line,
All i want, is to see u hav tht smile on ur face,
Let this feelins of mine vanished without a trace.
If 1 day we'll meet again,
I'm sure I'll be happy to see you till i go insane.
I guess things should turn out this way,
Till next time, I'll hope to meet you another day.

Reckon by: Muhammad Hilmi

topsy turvy-ed @ 10:34 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Wad u guys think of this pic?? Honestly? Do i look chubby? Hahaha.. Well, The Noches outin was really fun, thanks guys for the belated presents. I got $20 vouchers of HMV and Topman!! Haven't really used it actually.. Hahaha.. Well there's no expiry date for thing i think.. But guys thanks for the present.. I really appreciate it.. Anyways, Naha, Khai, Afiq and Sid was surprised to see me, my new look i guess.. My hair i think.. Hahaha.. God knows wadsup with them tho.. Anyways, some1 even say i look more healthier and look more happier and of course chubbier, so i better off jual anggur (another wood for sellin grapes and also meanin of shake leg being jobless hahaha!).. Of course, been stuffin myself with junk food and wadeva food i feel like eating..

Anyways, tht pic was recently taken on Monday, so yah, i dunno how different i look but i guess i look ok i think.. Another note to look for, Kur and the rest of the ppl who read me blog, my selfish sister go and take my phone away, so now, phoneless again.. Hahaha.. Well i still kept the same number if u ask me.. 81781998.. But dun worry, I'll keep u guys updated when i got my phone..

Guess wad dwarf i am? Bashful.. Yes u heard me.. I'm bashful.. Why??? I dunno how to be shy, I'm so damm thick skinned la.. At werk especially last time.. Hahaha.. But wad to do, my director already give me tht role, so juz make do with it then.. Anyways, my role only got 2 lines, so no worries.. Most of it are actions only.. Hahaha.. Wonder how shy i look like then.. Hahaha.. I wanna watch Over The Hedge!! It's a damm cool movie.. Hahaha.. Love tht squirrel.. Hahaha..

Ok if u guys wanna say abt tht pic, say ok, u wanna say how cute i am, juz TAG TAG TAG ok.. HAHAHA.. You see wad i mean by thick-skinned.. Cheerios.. Dalilah, thanks for the nice entry tht u put inside ur blog.. It's really damm sweet.. Aww.. And ya, thanks for hearing me out my cries.. Thanks girl.. Love ya lots!

PS: As u noticed i leave a poem everytime i finish an entry, well juz to let u know, tht poem wasn't really written on paper, but it juz came out from my head while i'm typin my entries.. Juz answerin ur curiosities tht's all..

The day u went away,
There's no presence of u around.
As the day i go astray,
i can no longer be found.
Maybe it hurts so bad,
The Things tht u say now sounds like a threat.
Smiles on my face are all fake and sad,
U felt completely cluessless and u know u hurt me like crap..
U were in my situation before and u overcome it somehow,
I'm like the 1 whose in ur shoes in ur past right now.
Maybe somehow this is life and we hav to get over it,
But it won't be easy for a person like me cuz tht's all bullshit.

Reckon by: Muhammad Hilmi

topsy turvy-ed @ 4:59 PM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Hi guys! juz wanna say got a part as a dwarf in Snow White & Seven Dwarfs.. Hahaha.. Cool huh? Yupz.. The cast this year is quite a lot and i think there's better talents.. Seriously.. Hahaha.. Well, as my director, Dennis says tht, for the role for dwarfs hav to be better and more interactive. Not only tht, we can't stand when we act as dwarfs but we hav to like squat and walk.. Tht of cuz is gonna be a challenge. Dennis said to me "I think u gonna look cute being a dwarf." Hahaha.. Thanks dennis..

Anyways, i wanna say million thanks to Calvin who brought me to a bdae treat on Friday.. Thanks man.. Hahaha.. And Rosie and of course Danny for the late night movie.. Hahaha.. I'm lookin for the costume premier for X3.. I'm sure it's gonna be fun!! Hahaha.. Can't wait to see X3.. I lioke!! Hahaha.. So Danny boy, keep me updated ok, hahaa.. Zaid finally get to know my drama mama friends, Rosie and Danny.. Hahaha.. Thanks Zaid for the treat as well the other time.. Hahaha.. Who I'm gonna Impersonate? Well, Danny suggested i should be Cyclops.. But i can't grow a stubble guys?? How am i suppose to do tht? hahaha..

Speakin of X-men i got to this webbie, and got to watch 7 mins of the sneak peek.. Cool.. Jean grey and her very gorgeous lookin costume is so WOW... I get to see her being so evil.. Nice.. I lioke.. Another movie lookin forward to watch is SILENT HILL... Hahaha.. Not a fan of horror but it makes me wanna watch it! Any1 up for tht? Characters and effects are really cool.. So whoever wanna watch tht, please inform me ok!! Hahaha.. Then we can scream the hell out of each other when we watch it! I hope it's not R21.. Cuz it's damm violent.. Hahah..

Btw, using my sister's Sony Ericsson W800i i think.. so haven't top up my prepaid yet, but u guys can msg me tho.. Finally got a phone!! Hahaha.. Anyways, the Noches are revived again!! Finally tomolo get to see my old buddies tht i used to hang out with! hahaha.. I'll get the pics updated ok.. Went back to werk earlier todae to return my uniform.. Ah Siong was like sayin, "eh your hair now different already ah.. longer and stylo now.." How true is tht? i dunno.. But thanks Kur for tht pinch, bloody bitch u.. hahaha.. Am i a person who always got pinched and nice to be pinched at?? Hahaha.. Lala, when i see u at Suria Segar on Sunday i was laughin like shit.. Hahaha.. No apparent reasons.. And wad the hell, i saw michelle in the early mornin on a live tv talk show.. Michelle, u sucks!! Hahaha.. Thank god i left tht place!! Hahaha..

Is it true?
That now u make me look like a fool.
I'm trapped in a darkness which has no opening light,
Juz like a person who juz lost his sight.
I dun mean anythin to you no matter how hard i tried,
How many days and how many nights tht i've cried.
Losing a person like you means a lot to me,
Maybe u never had feelins at all from wad i can see.
To be over u is wad i hate to do,
It's juz really a waste tht i already lost you..

Reckon by: Muhammad Hilmi....

topsy turvy-ed @ 9:02 PM

Monday, May 15, 2006

Ok every1! Latest pics Updated.. Enjoy my vainy pics.. Hahaha..

topsy turvy-ed @ 2:30 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

Ok it's official, I'm a very old adult now in my family.. Hahaha.. I've juz turn 19.. This is me reportin at 0954 hours 12 May 2006. Had a so-so bdae with my family even though certain family matters came up while havin dinner.. My sentiments were right after all.. The uneasy feelin did came true.. I spend the whole day ytd at home doing nothin.. My bdae, doing nuthin..
She asked me to make myself free and i hav no idea wad's in store for me, seriously, till the 2045 hours came, we went to a hawker centre to hav dinner with my aunt, dad, my mum, and my beloved siblings.

I was a bit happy tht time.. It's not tht i dun appreciate it but i spend the whole day ytd doin nuthin.. I should hav at least go out with my frens, and i purposely cancelled my plans juz to go out with my family.. So last night there was some kind of "Family Discussion" around the conversation.. 1 of it is becuz my brother whose only primary 5 admits tht he doesn't wanna go school anymore.. He's too lazy to do schoolwork..All he did was watch tv and play with his wadeva crazy imagination tht he has.. As i recalled when i was little, i think my brother is worst than me!! He's really a damm liar la.. And when i was young, if i lied, i'll see bruises on my body which was from my dad.. He's really lucky.. And he doesn't know how me and my sis last time got caned so bad for lying.. I tried to pep talk to him but he's like showin "the i cannot be bothered face" Wad the fuck right? He's really the pain in the ass.. I'm not really close to my brother.. We're like rivals to each other.. He hates me a lot..

Anyways, last day of werk the other time was really memorable even tho i can't get to see the people tht i wanted, such as Kelvin and Kur.. But it was really fun, i leave tht place with good memories, even tho dark clouds surrounds the place, but there are smiles tht shines the place.. I wanna say many thanks to all of u, Lala, Moz, Fiza,Tina, Tammy, Kur, Crystal, Kelvin. I love you guys so much, oh ya, Tina thanks for the Teddy Bear u got for me, it's really cute and adorable.. Hahhaa.. Ou Yang, Wei Neng and Desmond, thanks for the good food tht u guys cooked for me for the past months when i'm havin my staff meals.. U guys rawks man!! I'm gonna miss my Mexican Chicken and Penne Ham.. Hahaha.. I'm gonna miss Choc Indulgence and Apple Crumble.. Those cakes are like Yummy! Ok Ah Siong cut my hair, i mean not really cut but juz part of it as to say tht I'm old!! Hahaha.. To think tht they wanted to do voodoo on me.. Hahaha.. And not only tht, they sabotage me by makin drink this disgustin drink, wadeva it is, it's disgustin.. Hahaha..

Ok, when we were celebratin, tears of joy came out from my eyes.. Hahaha.. I'm such a cry baby.. But seriously.. I'm gonna miss the people there! I really love them a lot..

But no worries, Tammy made me promised tht I've to come down as least once a week.. Hahaha.. So might be coming down.. And to Kur, if u hav to werk a lot of bombastic hours, i wanna say sorry ok.. Hahahaha.. So far tht's the 2nd bdae i celebration i had from my colleagues.. Thanks guys! Muacks!

I purposely waited for awhile hopin you might say it,
The candle tht has been blown it can no longer lit,
As i figured u hav forgot,
This shows tht u dun care, a lot...
Maybe seein you again, it not a good idea,
Cuz whenever tht happens you make my heart on fire.
Should i or should i not leave you alone?
Maybe it's a good thing tht i lost my phone.
I need to get out of this flickering light,
I hope you'll come back to me 1 day when the time is right..

Take care..

topsy turvy-ed @ 9:44 AM

The group photo was taken when i watched CeMTA's latest production, i think it was somewhere in April, 1st photo from left: Zul, Hon Mun, Nurul, Indayani and Me!!

The Third photo from left:Zul, Huda, Hon Mun, Rosie, Nurul and Yani! Hahaha! It's like the CeMTA reunion tht time.. Hahaha..

The 1 sittin next to me with tht green shirt, tht's Eek!! I wanna say thanks for accompanyin me to watch the play, sorry if i took too much of ur time the other day.. And tht's me and Yani again.. Hahaha! More and more of my pics!

topsy turvy-ed @ 9:26 AM

Monday, May 08, 2006

Ok i finally put up my tag board! Hav fun with the tag board ok guys..

Ok, juz let u all know, for those of u readin this, i juz wanna say i lost my hp.. It was stolen..
I hope the mutherfucker who stole it whether he or she, i hope he or she won't be able to produce fine and nice babies.. Hahaha!! Ok, I'm being so mean now.. Ya, cuz I believe there's no such thing as People would return ur phone if they found it.. But in my case, it was stolen. How?
Where? When? Fuck the details.. I dun feel like sayin anythin here.. But i hope the culprit will die in a freak accident..

Ok i am not very happy with my werk place, i hav to agree with Kur, our werk place is no longer fun to work at.. It's juz unhealthy.. U know why? I tell u why, i requested to werk from 10-6 so at least i can get off early and celebrate my bdae with my close frens.. I actually planned to meet up with Sharifah, my very close fren from Primary school and also a very remarkable childhood fren of mine.. She never missed my bdae at all.. And I'm happy with tht.. Thanks Sha.. Anyways, i hav to cancel at the very last minute cuz I'm werkin full shift. Well on tuesday I'm werkin 10-10 and wed also 10-10.. Obviously i'm not enjoyin my bdae week.. But no worries.. Wednesday will be my last day there..

On my bdae day itself, i sense some uncertainty going on inside my family.. Uncertainty, nervousness, feelin blue, juz doesn't seem right.. Wad does she really mean? "We need to talk abt who's going with who?" I'm like shiverin, tears in my eyes as i listened to her voice on the phone.. Is she going for real? Going there and not comin back? Why does this has to happen on tht day? I want to be happy, but i can't. I dun want it to be crappy, cuz there won't be any fun..
Wad does she really mean? She's freakin me out...

My eyes were in pain, My head's going insane,
Wad is this retribution i've gain?
I'm not even sure tht I'm in the right lane.
The world is juz small and round,
Yet, U're the only person tht can be found.
But to be with you was somethin tht has been bound,
It's not as easy as it sounds.

Somethin i juz typed it out of my own for the poet above.. I know i know i ain't tht very good in poetry, juz wanna type it out for the my own sake..

Ok, I'm involved with The SAF.. Not Singapore Armed Forces! Singapore Arts Festival.. Yup, I'm in again.. Gonna be a Stage Manager and also will be actin as well.. Hahaha.. I actually dun wanna act but my director want me to act tho.. Hahaha.. I guess it'll be fun.. The title is Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs.. Yup.. Definitely I'm NOT the Snow White!! Duh!! Wad are u guys thinkin man!! Hahaha!! Prince?? Definitely not!! Hahaha.. I'm too ugly and too geeky to be the Prince. I'll be the dwarf of course.. Hahhaa.. Might be Dopey i guess.. Hahaha.. Our target is own kids definitely.. Same thing as Peter Pan last year.. That's the other reason I give up Secret Recipe. I gng to acting again. So the commitment and passion muz be there.. Haha..

Anyways, i hav a really good time ytd with Zaid, Khair, Sheila and Azizah.. We were celebratin Khair's Bdae!! It was totally cool.. We went to East Coast Park.. It was really unexpected cuz ytd i got nowhere to go, and it was my luck tht i called Zaid and he actually said tht he tried to call me and celebrate Khair and mine as well!! Hahaha.. He bought a cake.. Blackforest cake from Prima Deli i think.. Hahaha.. Even tho, i dun fancy blackforest tht much, but at least i got a taste of it. Hahaha.. Of cuz, cake smashin here and there.. And also at least i got to unwind all my probs at East coast with all the cyclin and all tht with them.. It's ok tht u guys hav no presents for me, but at least i got to celebrate with some of my group of frens.. Thanks guys.. Really appreciate it man..

And Md Nor's Bdae party was awesome!! Hahah! Got to see Anita again after 2 years.. She's like so plum now.. Hahaha.. No offense gerl.. Got to see Gabby and Casie as well.. Every1 do change a lot.. Hahaha.. The Notty or Nice party was heatin up there.. Hahaha.. I was of course nice, but the hunky 1 there.. Hahaha.. Why? Cuz they say so.. Cuz i was like so slack.. So I'm the Slack Hunky Angel there.. Hahaha.. Idil's costume is really cool, like a reall devil.. Spare u guys the details la.. Hahha.. Danny's costume is way cooler.. Hahaha. Why? Cuz he got wings!! Juz like the X3 character Angel.. Hahaha.. It was really cool.. Looks like a halloween party to me.. Md Nor Dressed as a Dracula! Hahaha.. Kwakwakwakwa.. Evil... Hahaha.. I'm so envy will all these cool parties.. I can never hav 1 of my own.. Hiaz..

But wadeva it is! Happy Bdae to Md Nor, Khair and a very belated bdae to MOONIE.. I hope she's readin this.. Well till next time guys.. Adios..

topsy turvy-ed @ 12:23 PM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Omg! Wad the hell am i still doin here now? It's already like 0223 hours? Why up so late? Change template again.. Hahaha.. I hate to do tag box.. It's simply so stupid cuz i already using my ID and they say "no user found".. Wad the Fuck!! Hahaha.. Anyways, watchin The OC now, wad the hell, season 3 it's not shown yet on TV.. damm u Mediacorp.. Hahaha! So wad hav i been doin?

Guess wad, I'm leavin my Job!! Yeah!! Yes Kur and Rilla, i know u guys gonna freak out but yah, i decided to leave the place.. For good.. Why? Personal Reasons.. Dun wanna mention.. Gonna keep it to myself.. Things been botherin inside my head.. Thinkin of some1, tryin to forget abt tht but it keeps botherin.. Hiaz! Why do i feel this way?? Hahaha.. Maybe i was thinkin too much. Muz clear off my mind.. Things at werk being so like "hectic". I felt like it's no longer a place where u call "fun" to werk at.. Trust me seriously.. Last day will be on the 10th so yeah.. Kur and Rilla, i know u're readin this, but my mind really made up..

I love u guys, Tina, Tammy, Rilla, Fiza, Crystal, Salmi and of course Kelvin! You guys are always my favourite! And it's been nice werkin with u guys, even i've been called "Sloppy" wadeva shit tht is, tht ass-hole wanna say me, i hope in any ways, u guys forgive me if I'm being so Vulgar with u guys.. Hahaha.. As always, we always joked around with all those F words and C words flyin aroun. Hahaha..

Kur, I always loved being disturbed by you and i love u so much.. Sorry in anyway tht i offend u tht u like Nazrul and all the Nonsense.. Hahaha..

Tammy, thanks for being such a sweet-talker, you always find a way to give compliments juz to make my day.. I love u!

Tina, my very 1st crush in SR, i hope u strive thru ur studies ok, dun stressed out with things in life ok, part of growin life, though it can be hard but u have to learn by crossin all the hurdles one step at a time.. You go gerl..

Kelvin, Thanks for being such a gr8 bro to me at werk, I'm gonna miss gossipin with u.. Hahaha.. And thanks for sharing with me abt ur life..

Lala, from PS till MS, it's really been psychotic werkin with u, shared with some "eye candies" if u know wad i mean.. Hehehe.. I lioke.. Hahaha!

Crystal, I'm gonna miss ya for sure darlin, i wish u all the best during the interview and NUS ok.. I hope u can through it.. All the best gerl!

The Kitchen staffs, only 3 words to say, U guys rawks!! Hahaha!

I hav no plans for next week obviously.. Hahaha.. Werk on Tuesday and wednesday werk mornin.. Hahaha.. So sianz.. Hahaha.. So tht will be my last day..

PS: Hav a safe trip and come back safely ok, hope u enjoy ur time there and shop till u drop ok man! See u when i see u again..

topsy turvy-ed @ 2:24 AM