I remembered this picture tht Roxanne drew me.. The guy of course la not the gerl. It looks so cute.. and i really appreciate her.. I miss her a lot man... Sorry for you lost Rox..
Anyways, this entry is juz somethin i would like confront. Not to any1, juz for myself..
When would u realise that everytime u wake up, u did the same thing all over and over again?
You get restless and feel helpless all the time, doing nothin.. You heard me right, doing nothing...
We know that when everytime, this kind of things happen, we complain and we complain, and there's nothing we could do.
As you know, my character feel with envy. Envy here and there. I know tht I'm the kind of person who do not have talents like most of my friends, 1 is an Artist, the other is Photographer, a dancer, a comedian and a singer. All of us hav talents, tht i hav to admit, some are juz multi-talented.
Wad talent do i hav? My talent is complain. Cuz tht's wad i'm always good at, not finding a solution but juz complain. I felt stupid. And a person like me SHOULD be sanitised away from ppl who are good at somethin. This is not an entry of negativity but this is juz somethin i felt all these while.
Karma. They say you do good things and in return you get somethin good. Well, maybe tht's true. But it's never fair for me. I did something good, but in the end, i got discriminated, hurt, insulted and being look down by some people.
There's a whole in my soul. I don't even know where, where am i standing right now? wad am i about to face in future? Wad abt the consequences tht i should face? I can't predict the future. I always complain, knowin i complained too much till i got sicked of it, i then realised tht there's no use of me complainin or comparing or bullshiting around cuz i know, i'm used to it, i know tht these are the things i need to go thru, the things tht i hav to adapt with. All these things can be put to an end. But how? How do i hav to face all these pain. I juz envied people who hav a good life, good talents, things tht they can do tht i can't.
Is this somethin I hav to live with all my life? Hiaz.. Only now, GOD knows...
topsy turvy-ed @ 6:00 PM
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The name's Hilmi, u can call me Im for short, or Hils or Hilly will do.. haha.. Anyways, serving my national service right now and finishin soon 11 sept 2008! Yahoo
Born on 11 May 1987.. Hav 3 crazy siblings. 21 this year. Laid back kinda guy and loves to make sarcastic remarks.. and a bit lame as well...
Loves
surf the net
reading books by mike gayle & matt dunn
hanging out with his frens
